New Down Tempo Brand?

So, I'm still undecided as to whether I'm full on making a new Brand yet. there was SOMETHING I DID want to create, which I think I might've mentioned on another of my blogs. I'm kind of fracturing all over the place or at least multi faceted, like a jewel depending upon how u look at it, but I have different blogs for a reason. To separate different things from each other that I do, because atho some folks might love my DSLR, or my Boho Interests, they might like like my Unicorns, Pokemon, Macross, Dragons, Animations, Academic Arts, or 90s Eurodance Techno.

To me, I'm just like:
Well if u like me, then wouldn't u like ALL of me?
No, Kandice. THEY WOULDN'T. And, THEY DON'T.

Just because I like Furries DOESN'T MEAN I must ONLY love furries. I like them very much, but i also like Frazetta, and Vallejo as much as I love Degas & Rodin. I like looking at art of sexy bodies as much as natural human figures, and art. I like politics, and philosophy, but I also like yoga and Hippie weirdos.

Even tho I don't necessarily believe in Astrology I like Astrology (even tho it isn't science) because its mathematics based (and not in a boring way) plus I think the Astrologers (the actual people) are just interesting and fascinating to me. I am just always curious about what they think, why they think things, and why they change over time.

Also, since I'm Agnostic, I still enjoy The art of Cartomancy or "Tarot Card Reading" which is an Art form, and has grown into an industry of all kinds of artwork, and performance arts. No, it isn't real, but its IS ENTERTAINING, and I think its normal for the human brain to think its fun and entertaining. I watch Magic shows too. And I also like incense and candles. I don't care if its fake, pretend, or unscientific. I just like these things because I'm a human. I like dressing up as a witch on Halloween. I like Christmas Trees. I like Cathedral Architecture. It can mean something to you if you want it to, or it can also be fun to pretend, and feel, and be in character. It's all art, and its all in ur head anyways.

I found that if I read Tarot cards for people whom were sad or upset, it made them feel better. It didn't matter if it was fake, pretend, or whatever.... Maybe its Pareidolia.... which is something the human brain does... Who knows? Actors are fakers, and pretenders. But I like those as well.

But I digress....

I would VERY much like to create some content that is more soothing, relaxing, down tempo.... I like working with the audio design, and I have done a number of things. LoFi is currently a thing as well.


Here's Some of my previous experiments:

NegaRen in Negas Park/New England:

Still unfinished because my Computer was hacked so badly last year and still out for Data recovery... BIG HARD DRIVES take a long time... and lots of crashes.... 

Television Broadcast Graphics:

A  Spirit To Be Free:

I only got to finish 2 episodes because of my big hacking problem at the end of last year. But 2 episodes have aired on Cable TV. But, I can;t upload because I have terrible internet. 

Tipsy TV was a fiasco... 

The Director was problematic, and its a long story. Anyways, I own all of my footage & B-Roll, so I have THIS made for my own personal tastes and values:

Much of the stuff for "A Spirit To Be Free" was ideas for my brand anyways. So, I don't know if I want to stick with "A Spirit To Be Free" which in my mind still isn't finished, because I just need to edit it. I'd also originally intended A Spirit To Be Free to include content from other people that was creative. But, it was as tho I was speaking a different language to people, and people ran away from the opportunity. 

I like whimsical and free spirited things. I like to dream, and to day dream. I like upbeat things just as much as I like soothing things. It depends. 

I've created so many things for so many other people's projects, and I often find they can;t understand what I'm doing it while I'm doing it because it hadn't ever been done before... or I'm just so Indie. 

Motion Graphics:

But, honestly, I'm kind cheesy & cliche as well. Here's the Angelic Being I did for my friend's film which is probably stuck permanently on hiatus at this point due to COVID-19 and the fact that I was fed up with everything. I care about my friend, but not enough to put up with all the shenanigans of those whom not only push over the pushovers, but that fact that the pushover is STILL a pushover n expecting me to ALSO be one, and enable it.

But, surely there's a place for such things out there. Surely there's a market for such content. I've come across much like it after the fact that I have made it. So, It all needs to be reworked. 

This is also 1 of my FAVORITES. It's actually NOTHING NEW, but at the time I failed miserably to find ANYTHING like this, even tho I'd seen it many times before... but, NOW when u search LoFi u can find all manner of this stuff:

So, I would like to produce more content like this of my own.

Then there's the ASMR stuff as well:

I shot quite a lot of stuff that's either ASMR or Visual ASMR. TONS. I shot stuff up here in New England, and also in Florida twice. I shot stuff in Philly, but not as much as I wanted. I want to get a camera drone as well.

 I feel that video footage from a rain storm can be just as interesting as the ocean, or a lake. Whenever I go to the dentist they have stuff like that playing.

But, I also like Outer Space stuff

I also wanted to have more with these Butterflies. I wanted this project to be done back in 2018.

I REALLY wish I had my computer back because its a rebuilt and NEW rig. But, I STILL need my OLD DATA and FILES. All this stinking time in Lockdown or Quarentine and I can;t do my art, and I have SO MUCH footage, and projects just stalled. 

I wanted to do more with my Butterflies from Inktober. I also wanted to REDO my 2016 film. I KNOW I can do it better now. 

I just want ALL of that stuff DONE and out of the way so I can do BIGGER and BETTER things. 

But, I still would like to do my Relaxation content. 

I feel that there is room for all of those things on my TV Show "A Spirit To Be Free" but I would also like a channel that is JUST for the relaxation stuff, like meditation, ASMR, zen, chill-out, and LoFi content. I feel I could do that. I would like to see my work in that department as its own thing despite being on/in "A Spirit To Be Free". But, "A Spirit To Be Free" can also be upbeat. 

But, I wanted to brand name to be something sort of weird tho, like a Perfume Avant Garde commercial/ad or art piece. I have a few names picked out. but I'm still undecided yet. It will most likely be SOMETHING PURPLE or related to that.

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New Brand??? Meditative? Relaxing? Chill out? ASMR?

Something I was wanting to do VERY MUCH for years was have a side project, and possibly a brand that would mostly have a meditative or Chill-out style of down tempo or slower and meditative media and/or ASMR to help with relaxation.

I LOVE techno and fast up tempo music, but I also like things that are soothing. It depends on my mood, or if I need to relax. I have anxiety sometimes. Sometimes, i want something dreamy, sometimes I like nature, or far off locations. ASMR is also popular. I like mediation videos or so-called "zen" audio videos.

I wanted, originally, to have everything under my 1 brand Black UniGryphon, but it seems that people have completely different tastes than mine, and some things I love doesn't mean they will love ALL of the same things I do.

I've been tossing around SEVERAL ideas for these kinds of things since 2016, so I'd LOVE to indulge and realize ALL of these things. But, I might possibly need to create another channel for that.




Here's some of my Experimental Work mostly from or around the time of UMASS Boston (2016-2018):

This work is more slower, down tempo, chill, not fast or quick. It;s a different vibe than my usual peppy stuff. Academic Art stuff.

Motion Graphics Experiments:

Waterfalls Projects WIPs:

This was originally for a Video Projection Mapping project at UMASS Boston, but I was so fristrated with it, and the teacher ditched me before I shot the projection part, which he was irate over because it was awful.

Here was the botched Attempt at the Video Mapping due to my teacher frequently ditching us and going home on a whim:

I went through a LOT of trouble to create the Instillation Object piece and it was made to fit EXACTLY the video, but he just up & left, leaving me waiting n waiting n waiting many times.... I didn't know how to use the projector, had no supervision, no instructions, and so I gave up waiting for him since it was due the following day. He was so irate with it, that it was actually MEAN, but it was HIS FAULT and NOT MINE. So, he made me do something else, and start all over  BECAUSE HE LOST FACE, and that was a MEAN thing to do.

So, I shot something else, WHICH HE ALSO ditched me with, so I went with a  more comedic approach BECAUSE typical Generation X (me) deals with fucked up life with sarcasm and snark, as jokes and comedy. Typical Gen X making lemonade out of when life give u lemons. 

The waterfall animation is by my friend David. ^,^ But the fire and other stuff on the wall was the teacher telling me what to do. I was so frustrated and annoyed that after the teacher ditched me AGAIN I just feel back on my old methods of doing things from AIPH or my old YouTube days in the GW Bush Era. So, I grabbed a mic n from the equipment place, and shot different shots, then slapped together and edit, venting my annoyed state, and making humor from it like a typical traditional animator....that I am...

So, it actually went over very well.... I'm still miffed about it, but I do find it rather funny.

After that, I made various experiments at UMASS Boston and was trying to learn After effects because no one actually knows that much about the program. It's my favorite program tho.

I was trying to figure out, and learn how to use 3D stuff in After Effects, and "Wiggle", as well as getting the illusion of plants growing with the cheesey Stroke Reveal stuff. I had ZERO guidance whatsoever, just very old YouTube videos that were outdated. Other people refused to help me because I didn't vote for HRC. (I voted GREEN Party... BECAUSE I'm A GREEN) Anyways, no one there knows how to do ANY of these things.Neither do any of my friends.... of if they sort of know how, they shunned me for NOT voting for HCR. Screw her! I'm NOT with HER! (I READ HER EMAILS on Wikileaks.)

Yeah... mood swing.... but, I like making relaxing stuff just as much as I enjoy making happy fun, and peppy stuff. I don't like things that are boring, and things that are SOOTHING are NOT boring to me BECAUSE ITS DOING something to me. NOT BOREDOM. Boredom is negative, or negativity, and destructive.

So, since then , I have done various experiments in motion graphics and animation, as well as shot a lot of B-Roll.

Here is the ACTUAL thing I wanted to learn how to do while at UMASS Boston with a waterfall, BUT NO ONE KNEW HOW, and that included PAID EXPERTS.... (whom weren;t really experts at all)

Anyways, its JUST an experiment. I feel like most people don;t fully understand how to use Particles in After Effects. But, if you can, the more you play with it the better you can become. I got this to work from a tutorial on YouTube, which was still frustrating to figure out, but I did it. It's so-so tho, but no  one at UMASS (including people paid to be there and teach it) have no idea how to do this... in fact NO ONE at ANY colleges or art schools in ALL of Greater Boston can do it. I WOULD KNOW. I ASKED.... AND ASKED.... AND ASKED SOME MORE.... A LOT.


Well, kids.... don;t give up.

Wanderlust Bohemian Meditation Autumn Foliage Ambient Video

A small dream/goal of mine was to make some ambient Meditation video art, and cut it to my own audio design music. It was something I had dreamed up a few years ago while walking in the woods, dealing with severe depression.


Most of the footage was shot all over South Weymouth including my own neighborhood, South Feild (Union Point), other neighborhoods, and a Colonial Graveyard near the South Shore Hospital down the street from me. I shot most of the footage on a CANON XA10 camcorder, often with experimenting with my own lens filters, and even a fisheye lens attachment of my own. Much of this footage also ended up in my other films I produced in 2016 including "Boho Light Journal" and "Smattering Thoughts Also Flow".

I can tell, by working on the editing that my camera work as improved a lot since I shot this footage in October 2016. This was the video camera my instructor told me to start with, and I've moved on since then to more SLR types since upgrading to HD from the old analog.

My mind is apparently at high speed, so I remember shooting this, and actually thinking I was doing it slowly... I was waaaay off, plus I was spoiled at shooting for Instagram styled content which is lightning quick. But, since it's a Wanderlust theme, it fits.

The actual melody in the music is a variation on a melody I wrote when I was 6 years old. I usually just called it "The Blue Fairies Song" or "The Blue Fairies Melody" because I composed the song at the house of my elderly neighbors in the 1980s, Mr. & Mrs. Walter Blue (Mt. Laurel, NJ) on their antique piano, whom were in their golden 80s.

Part of the ambient-ness was partly inspired by an experimental ambient track by Kerli titled "Journey Through The Elven Kingdom"  but also inspired by Blümchen's 1995 Trance/Techno track "Herzen habben Flügel" (Hearts Have Wings or the English version "Where Hearts Have Wings" by Blossom") as well as several styles of music like "Breath" by Chang Jing, or anything Yoga, Ambient, and Meditation audio found all over the place like Amazon, and YouTube.

Here are is the Song FREE DOWNLOAD:

I still have other B-ROLL footage I shot left over from last year, but it was lanterns, candles, a tea setting, and other stuff I also shot this year... I was originally going to cut the footage with the same ambient song... but I realized it was TOO DAY-TIME-ish, and need to recut the audio with evening sound/audio mixed in instead... So, I spent quite a while compiling audio since last night for that. I'm not sure whether to go exactly the same or in a new direction, if not both, because I have all of my original vocals that I'd recorded. I even have an Arabesque version of vocals.

Kerli's experimental track actually is composed in segments of audio that flow one into the next, and I also have other tracks like that as well. Even tho' I've messed with audio editing & audio design since at least 1994, I don't feel like I'm a professional nor a true audio/music person, even tho' I like it, but more of a hack at times.

So, I would like to work on the new audio tracks, and cut some more mediation videos for my audio design/recording art stuff. Just a few of them, and have a small portfolio/album of them.

Free Download: Haunting Blue Fairy Muses

I finally finished this track! I kept putting it off!

I originally created the original melody when I was 6 years old, back in New Jersey in the 1980s on my neighbor's piano.

I've told this story many times, so the short version is that in the summer after moving into our new house in Mount Laurel on Fostertown Rd. our neighbor's named Mr. & Mrs. Blue has their annual summer barbecue picnic and invited us.

At some point I remember everyone being inside the house, so I think it might've rained, and I saw they had a piano. I felt this magnetic attraction of the piano sitting there and was allowed to play, yet other children were not. I knew nothing about how to play a piano but I started improvisationally playing. I had no idea I could do that, and in the process of playing that piano, I felt myself transported to another realm of fairies and magic, since I had a wild imagination as a child, and I even remembered seeing fairies when I was a toddler, until I stopped seeing them around the same age. During that time I came up with this melody, and my grandparents gave me an electric organ which I often played this melody over & over and reworked it into what it generally is now.

I usually just called it "The Fairy Melody" or "The Fairy World" because that day when I created it at my neighbors' house I felt like I was in another world, and also time stopped, and passed by me until it was night time.

I currently called it "The Blue Fairies Melody" but I have different versions with different lyrics I wrote last year for my "dragon film" ("Zenith Beyond Eclipsing The Dragon's Rue") .

This version actually came to me LAST YEAR (2016) around February/March between the times when we had the extreme snow and deep subfreezing cold we also had incredibly warm days.

I felt as tho' I was GOING CRAZY, literally, and it was very upsetting to me because I was supposed to start a new job PLUS start classes at UMASS in the Fall semester of 2016. But, I kept hearing all this music inside of my head, and it was DRIVING ME MAD. I was so scared for my very life that I was considering seeing a doctor, and the feelings I was having were so bad, and overwhelming!

So, in a desperate moment I through on my coat and I walked over to South Field (renamed Union Point by the fall) and I felt the music fighting me, and trying to force myself "to be sensible" until I finally gave up, and thought: What the heck! Fine! If I'm a crazy woman, then oh well! And, If I start singing and people think I'm a crazy woman, then so what if I am?!

The words just poured out of my throats and my mouth! It was frightening at first! But, when I finally stopped fighting it, and surrendered to it, all this MUSIC came out! After I let it all out, or just let it come out, I found so much better! I didn't feel depressed, or overwhelmed with bad feelings. This went on the entire Spring and Summer.

But, this ambient version actually came very strongly to me, and it often came out of me when I was walking through South Field alone, and wandering through the trees. I KNEW I wanted to make a recorded version of it, but I didn't have a microphone.

When I finally started my video class at UMASS I actually jumped at the chance to borrow a condenser mic, and recorded a lot of things.

I finally edited this version this winter starting in December last year (2016).

It's pretty much EXACTLY what I wanted it to be.