Showing posts with label free spirit. Show all posts
Showing posts with label free spirit. Show all posts

Friday, March 3, 2017

Spring Sakura Mori Identity Portarait [Digital Media UMASS Boston]

I am taking the Digital Media class at UMASS Boston with a really great instructor, Cat Mazza.

The requirements were that at least 1 layer MUST be a scan.

It's multiple layers of my photography, lots of my old tricks I learned from working at Top Cow/Image Comics.

I also ended up doing a demo on my styles, and how it works. But, we ran out of time.

Here's mine project:







Saturday, January 21, 2017

Free Download: Haunting Blue Fairy Muses

I finally finished this track! I kept putting it off!

I originally created the original melody when I was 6 years old, back in New Jersey in the 1980s on my neighbor's piano.

I've told this story many times, so the short version is that in the summer after moving into our new house in Mount Laurel on Fostertown Rd. our neighbor's named Mr. & Mrs. Blue has their annual summer barbecue picnic and invited us.

At some point I remember everyone being inside the house, so I think it might've rained, and I saw they had a piano. I felt this magnetic attraction of the piano sitting there and was allowed to play, yet other children were not. I knew nothing about how to play a piano but I started improvisationally playing. I had no idea I could do that, and in the process of playing that piano, I felt myself transported to another realm of fairies and magic, since I had a wild imagination as a child, and I even remembered seeing fairies when I was a toddler, until I stopped seeing them around the same age. During that time I came up with this melody, and my grandparents gave me an electric organ which I often played this melody over & over and reworked it into what it generally is now.

I usually just called it "The Fairy Melody" or "The Fairy World" because that day when I created it at my neighbors' house I felt like I was in another world, and also time stopped, and passed by me until it was night time.

I currently called it "The Blue Fairies Melody" but I have different versions with different lyrics I wrote last year for my "dragon film" ("Zenith Beyond Eclipsing The Dragon's Rue") .

This version actually came to me LAST YEAR (2016) around February/March between the times when we had the extreme snow and deep subfreezing cold we also had incredibly warm days.

I felt as tho' I was GOING CRAZY, literally, and it was very upsetting to me because I was supposed to start a new job PLUS start classes at UMASS in the Fall semester of 2016. But, I kept hearing all this music inside of my head, and it was DRIVING ME MAD. I was so scared for my very life that I was considering seeing a doctor, and the feelings I was having were so bad, and overwhelming!

So, in a desperate moment I through on my coat and I walked over to South Field (renamed Union Point by the fall) and I felt the music fighting me, and trying to force myself "to be sensible" until I finally gave up, and thought: What the heck! Fine! If I'm a crazy woman, then oh well! And, If I start singing and people think I'm a crazy woman, then so what if I am?!

The words just poured out of my throats and my mouth! It was frightening at first! But, when I finally stopped fighting it, and surrendered to it, all this MUSIC came out! After I let it all out, or just let it come out, I found so much better! I didn't feel depressed, or overwhelmed with bad feelings. This went on the entire Spring and Summer.

But, this ambient version actually came very strongly to me, and it often came out of me when I was walking through South Field alone, and wandering through the trees. I KNEW I wanted to make a recorded version of it, but I didn't have a microphone.

When I finally started my video class at UMASS I actually jumped at the chance to borrow a condenser mic, and recorded a lot of things.

I finally edited this version this winter starting in December last year (2016).

It's pretty much EXACTLY what I wanted it to be.



Sunday, October 16, 2016

Boho Light Journal Video Project w Poetry

Here's my video project for my Video Workshop at UMASS.

This video project was a lot of work. I shot more than 500+ video clips, then I had to do hours of trouble shooting for audio, and hours of audio recording, and even lost my voice.

All of the music, poetry, cinematography, production, editing, arrangements, etc. was entirely performed by Me, Myself, and I.





Tuesday, July 26, 2016

July Boho Chic Balcony Decor

Well, my so-called balcony on the first floor (deed technical terms call it  "balcony" even tho' it's first floor and, it's not really  a patio since it's enclosed like  balcony, and no exit. Also not a porch since there's no steps. ) has pretty much been a work in progress...

But, finally getting somewhere.

This July, and even Independence Day weekend, I had all kinds of stuff happening out there! It was glorious!

My lanterns I got from Christmas!
Then, I got a bunch of my stones, and these wooden boxes, and did this whole corner which never gets sunlight.

That antique teapot is going to get redone also, but i need money for the other parts to DIY it. I also need stuff to hang or mount stuff on the walls... but, bit by bit... can't do it all at once, because poverty is a thingy...


The string lights are inside, also.

And, I added little craft faux flowers and garland tinsel bits w butterflies.


Here was our Independence Day burgers outside! That's my daughter, Heidi. 




Candles & lights and night time, and also laid out the yoga mat. 

Incense to try to keep away mosquitoes. Actually, I want some mosquito nets, but, maybe some day I'll be able to afford some... 















Then, because I'm a free spirit and a raver (Rave 4 Ever) I turned on my disco lights and played Eurodance techno, and Trance tracks on my old Galaxy phone. Maybe you can see it by the small lantern on the Chinese stool in the corner.



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A video posted by Kandice Kathleen Zimbleman 任思麒 (@blackunigryphon) on


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What it originally looked like before I did the whole decoration stuff



BTW: It's one of the ONLY days of the ENTIRE YEAR (Summer solstice) that you can actually partly see the sun setting from this spot.

As for this antique teapot: >>>----------->
Well, this has been a project on hold since 2014.

I'm still gonna DIY this. it will be entirely new, and all original!

I JUST GOT the knob for the top/lip at Home Depot.

The handle is broken, so I will be redoing the handle. That will be GORGEOUS!
I already cut the broken bits of wood off, and sanded it in New Jersey at my father' house.

This will be ULTRA BOHO CHIC!

I have plans for LED lights, crystal wire wrapping, and also drilling it like a Moroccan lamp/lantern.

It's funny, because no one understands my vision of it YET.

But, i figure, once i've done it, EVERYONE will want to make their own versions!

Anyways, this stuff was VERY popular on my Instagram and Twitter. So, here's the blogged out version, FINALLY!




Wednesday, December 30, 2015

Boho Chic [Sleeveless] Christmas Purple Arden B 006

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This Arden B. outfit has 2 pieces: the top was just a tunic, and there was a long sleeved shrug. They sold this either shrug only, tunic only, or you could get them bundled. It was one of those items that just really excited my inner girliness, and was sold at Christmas time around 2004 I think... I've had to repair it several times tho' since it's not the greatest quality... I think I spent like $45 on it back then. My spouse forbid me to get it, but i got in anyway... :-/ If I'd really unrestrained myself, and got the boots they had that year, I woulda really put myself in the whole... alas, no boots for me... What a long time ago that was!

Anyways, when I was shooting this set, at one point I got bold and took off my shrug... I was so self conscious of my arms being flabby, but one of my dance teachers did a comedy burlesque of herself with her flabby arms.... so, that year not only was I trying to tone up my arm,s and not really getting much results, I really started to try testing myself or my self confidence by letting my arms be naked... and this was one such instance of my mustering up the courage...

I actually have flabbier arms now, but I couldn't care less what people think of my arms anymore...
If someone is going to judge me based on my arms, I really wouldn't have any respect for anything they would think nor have to say, since it wouldn't be an opinion that mattered to me at all... there's more to me than my arms, or whatever I look like....

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Monday, December 28, 2015

Boho Chic Christmas Purple Arden B 004

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I like feathers! I've ALWAYS liked feathers! I used to collect feathers since I was a toddler. I remember going to the Philadelphia Zoo when I was like 2 or 3 with my Grandparents, parents, and my aunt, and finding feathers all over the ground everywhere. My grandmother got a plastic ziplock bag, and started filling it with the feathers I kept finding. Most of them were BLACK. I also grew up raising chickens as a kid. I had all the feathers I could ever want at the time. 
Not only that, but I'm part Native American. (Mescalero Apache Nation) and since I was in the 6th grade everyone kept calling me Pocahontas (an that was LONG BEFORE there was a Disney cartoon). It was my nickname, probably because I wore feathers in my hair everyday. 

If you want to know how it feels to be judged by how you look, for being different, then I dare you to go a whole year wearing feathers in your hair, or on your glasses, among yuppies, when it's NOT IN FASHION and you will KNOW how it feels to have visceral HATE and prejudice targeted at you for NOT CONFORMING. feathers have an incredibly special meaning to me. 
I DID NOT want to be like the yuppies in New Jersey. I did NOT want to be a superficial, fake, nasty, hatefully bully, nor to be told WHAT I ought to THINK, the way I ought to talk, dress, live or conduct myself. 

Each time they picked on me for wearing feathers, the MORE I wanted to wear them. For every brat, bitch, stuck-up snob that started shit with me, I wanted to be MORE whom I was inside. Those feathers represented who I REALLY WAS, and that I was NOT ONE OF THEM. In the 5th grade, I went from being a popular person, to being friendless on principle. And, my ENTIRE Middle School experience with only a few exceptions was utterly horrid. I use to get beaten up, brutalized, picked on, accosted, and not just by my peers in my own grade, or older kids, but by a teacher, whom also allowed my victimizing to occur and enabled it. 

Back then, I was religious, and I used to practice Christian pacifism which meant that if I was attacked I couldn't retaliate nor exact revenge, however, if someone else was in trouble I could stand up to their attackers on their behalf like a martyr. Not only that, but I had to forgive, love, and pray for my abusers. 
Honestly, I would NEVER teach this to anyone today, because I think it's a horrible way to live, and enables victim-hood. 

jollychic.comFeathers represent a number of things. For one they symbolize the element of AIR. Air or Wind is kind of a theme with me. My Astrological Ascendant/Rising-Sign and my Moon/Lunar Sign are both LIBRA which is a Zodiac Sign associated with the element of AIR as well as INTELLECT or the MIND. Libra also is known for its association with a love and appreciation of Beauty or beautiful things (arts & nature appreciation). Yet, feathers themselves are firm, but they flex, and have give to them. they can cut THROUGH the air, or give LIFT, and can hold the bird in the air while in motion. 
My Sun/Solar sign is Virgo, which is the Earth sign, also a MIND sign. So, yeah, I'm mental... 
Feathers can also, at times give things an "earthy" feel... -dunno why.... 

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So, here you can see me in my Boho Chic feather earrings from Charlotte Russe (vintage). Definately a statement piece set of earrings. 

Its ironic that I'd suffered so much for my heritage, or for the audacity of wearing feathers, when several times since I'd graduated high school, feathers had been in fashion several times to be the "in" accessory for HAIR or, whatever..... 

myUS.comOh, but Great Spirit for-fend I should EVER speak the TRUTH about this to anyone whom is a FULL BLOODED Native American, whom all LOVE to jump all over me, breath down my neck, and pile on all sorts of HATEFUL words, or threats, about how I'm NOT a Native, how WHITE my skin is, that I have BLUE EYES, or how they want to RAPE me.... and make me "their woman but not their wife", or whatever that's supposed to mean... 

I find that I often gel really well with other mixed bloods like myself of Native American descent, because FULL BLOODS are SCARY, MEAN, NASTY, HATEFUL, PREJUDICED and SEXIST. Let's NOT EVER do anything like that again....
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adjective
1.
free from local, provincial, or national ideas, prejudices, or attachments; at home all over the world.
2.
of or characteristic of a cosmopolite.
3.
belonging to all the world; not limited to just one part of the world.
4.
Botany, Zoology. widely distributed over the globe.
noun
5.
a person who is free from local, provincial, or national bias or attachment; citizen of the world; cosmopolite.
6.
a cocktail made with vodka, cranberry juice, an orange-flavored liqueur, and lime juice. 
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